kyutie

time

2010-11-15T20:49:00.002+09:00

TIME can heal all wounds.

TIME can give you another chance.

TIME can help you forget.

TIME can let you move on.

But,

TIME can never give back what was lost.

speak

2010-10-22T02:48:00.001+09:00

So often we don't say 'I love you'
because we fear losing someone,
but more often we lose them
because we fear saying 'I love you'

If you love someone, tell them..

for hearts are often broken by words left unspoken..

memories

2010-10-22T02:38:00.005+09:00

Letting go, even if it hurts, doesn't mean you have to let go of everything.
You just have to let go of the person and your feelings for that someone.
But the memories will always be there whether it's good or bad.
And every time you remember those memories, it will always put a smile into your heart.
And be glad that once in your life this person made you happy

and have put colors into your life even if it's just for a while.

blind

2010-10-22T02:35:00.001+09:00

You fail to see the one who loves you

standing right in front of you. .
As does she fail to see you

when you already love her in turn. .
Don't let her wait too long

because it might be to late then. .

gone

2010-10-22T02:29:00.003+09:00

It's amazing how we realize things when you lose someone. .

You get mad at yourself for not saying
the things you could've a million times. .

You take for granted the days spent doing nothing
when you could have been with them. .

Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives,
but we always wait until they're gone to say
the things we never had the courage to before.

no regrets

2010-10-22T02:24:00.003+09:00

I could never regret loving you. .

Because even if you didn't love me anymore,

I know that you once did and

that is the most wonderful feeling. .

Because I never thought that I deserved your love. .

maybe

2010-10-22T02:20:00.003+09:00

A guy and a girl can be just friends. .

But at one point or another one of them will fall for the other. .

Maybe temporarily. .

Maybe at the wrong time. .

Maybe too late. .

Or maybe, just maybe

forever. .

untitled

2010-10-20T16:31:00.003+09:00

they're fun. they're crazy and never sane. they study. they never cry. they shout. they're insensitive. they fight. they're strong. they're brilliant. they're different.

but i love them just the way they are.

JANG GEUN SUK

2010-10-20T16:28:00.001+09:00

i will stop my world. . .

just to spin YOURS. . .

U in CHRIST

2009-06-28T12:19:00.004+09:00

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i thought it would be a very long and boring day. i just kept on wishing that the day would end soon. but later then, with an unexpected turn of events, right then i wished to stop time and be still on that moment forever. a place of comfort and soundness. a place like heaven.

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DYA CONFERENCE '09

we started it with a celebration of the Holy Eucharistic mass. then poured out the youth's energy and enthusiasm by a parade from the San Jose Parish to SCC-YDC gym. we relaxed and look for our happy place, oh, i mean, our respective places in the gym. after switching places every now and then, we finally settled to the left side of the gymnasium. then the conference started and ended swiftly, now becoming a priceless memory and experience of my existence.

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UNITY Dance

i forgot the lyrics but i swear that was great. SUPER! and one line of the song i didn't forgot is this,

"Move to the groove, CHRIST is the prize."

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Saint Paul

the main focus of our conference is about the life and faith of Saint Paul who was once known as Saul of Tarsus, the prosecutor.

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Saint Mary

we had group activities and i am in Saint Mary's group! i admire one of my groupmates. wetwew! though he's from Pagadian still its the first time i've heard him speak. and i secretly peeked on his nametag to see for myself what his name is. and it's Alvin.

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Session! Session! Session!

first session was about faith. sounds fun as faith is often illustrated with a relationship with the other being. yet faith is so hard to achieve. so easy to say but so diffucult to portray.
second, unity in Christ. as far as what Fr. Suarin had stressed during his lecture, unity in Christ means living ecumenically with all.
and last yet the most memorable for me was the talk of Sister Aquinas. she had given us two challenges as we go on with our conference. first challenge was to live out what Fr. Suarin was telling us and second was to be silent. be SILENT.

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it's time to partaay!

showcase of talents from the different vicariate areas had begun.

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p.s.

sssshh. be silent so that you'll know how to listen. =)

=(

2009-06-27T19:43:00.000+09:00

he was mine but not really.
i've never really had him.
so, i never really lost him.
i guess, this is how we'll always be.
i had him.
he had me.
but then again, there's no us really.

me

2009-06-20T14:31:00.001+09:00

right now

2009-06-17T00:39:00.003+09:00

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i want to sleep but i don't know how to.
i am a little troubled right now.
friends are going further.
people are away.
i feel so lost.
i am alone.
i remembered a friend but then he seems busy.
i can't talk to anyone.
i miss him.
i am tired.
i feel sick.
i want to give up.

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nitee. =(

untitled

2009-06-11T13:09:00.005+09:00

after a long while, we had the chance to talk and see each other again.

i smiled at him and so did he.

"so, what's going on with your committed life?" i asked.

"we're FINE," he answered.

there's a tone of declaration and truthfulness in his voice. somehow, it made me feel sad. but i also heard a hymn of loneliness on the way he stressed out those words. i wondered and it made me quiet. we're both very still and silent. it's deafening. and for me its already killing inside.

breaking the silence, he asked, "are you alright?"

i stared at him and then i nodded. looking away i nodded again staring blankly at nothingness.

then the words came instantly from him and started to say,

"i've BEEN missing you."

the word 'BEEN' hit me. it's like somebody had slapped me in the face.

"i miss your voice. i miss your face. the expressions only your face could make," he paused, cracking up a hurtful smile.

then, he continued, "i miss the touch of your hand. i miss how gentle we put our hands together. i miss how loose your grip was and how i tighten mine so that i won't lose you."

i explained to my self, 'my grip was loose beacuse i know you already belonged to someone and holding it tight will make it very difficult for me to let go.'

"i miss the way you laugh at my silliest joke. i miss the way you cry over friendship and some drama movies. i miss the way we fight over small things and laugh a minute after. i miss the way you get angry with me and the way you scold me."

"i miss your text messages. i miss the songs you once sang to me. i miss the times thinking hard on what song should i sing to you every night. i miss the times i play the guitar beside you. i miss the times that i would walk you home and i end up getting home very late. i miss how we look at the night sky together."

'i miss that, too,' i said under my breath.

"i miss the time when i slept at your lap and you in mine. i miss your irrated smile when i tickle you and when i touch your nose and your face. i miss your tired look, your worried aura, your sleepy eyes."

"i miss you. i miss your company. i miss the way we we're before. i really do."

he hugged me tight as tears fell from his eyes.

and right before a single tear fell from mine i realized he loves me as much as i love him.

i hugged him tighter.

and then,

i woke up. =(

my bad

2009-06-08T00:13:00.003+09:00

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meeting you was the greatest thing that had happened to me.

loving you was the biggest mistake i've made.

>tseyk!

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yippey!

walang pasok! walang pasok!

tenk u na rin sa A(h1n1) ..

hehe..

i have 1 week pah..

chege. gudnite!

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p.s.

mwah!

i'm bored

2009-06-01T13:49:00.003+09:00

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june nah jud.

ahmm. ui. happy monthsary sa mga tawong karun ang monthsary. haha. sa mga nakabalo kinsa cla. ato2 nalang ni. haha.

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max.

tenchu sa treat gahapon. mwah. lab u.

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yang.

hehe. apir. wala lang. mis u!

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ahem. te peng. processing pa imu order. excited au huh. hihi!

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wel. ahmm. hi. hihi. amping.

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mi. kie rka? hehe.

>okey rah bya. wala lang. haha.

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p.s.

mwah!

ooops!

2009-05-31T19:22:00.004+09:00

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aloha! i'm back!

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they say you'll only realize a person's worth until they're gone.

>guess that's true!

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many things had caught up on me this week. yes! its caught up. well, my past caught me up this weekend.
regret seems to be a part of what i'm feeling now.
may be it's too late. or may be not.
everyone deserves a second chance. and i think i am not an exemption to that "everyone". may be i deserve a chance. but will he give me that chance?

>drama lang. lolz!

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hmmmp! arrrgh! .sigh.
my weekend is both at its best and at its worst. it's really very hard to mix friendship with another kind of love. most especially if he is inlove with my "used-to-be-bestfriend". and what's best and at the same time worst? it's when my "used-to-be-bestfriend" shows signs of uncontrollable insecurity. insecurity is the best thing but her way of showing that "she-is-so-not-insecure-of-me" gets into the core of my nerves.

>haha. feeler lang bitaw q ui.

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p.s.

>mwah!

real girl

2009-05-30T19:50:00.002+09:00

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sound trip

If I had one chance to in my life again
I wouldn't make no changes now or way back when
And if everything turns out the way I hope it goes
But I cant wait to find out what it is that God knows

But I don't wanna think about what's gonna come around for me
I'll just take it day by day 'cause it's the only way
To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not
You get what you see, when you see what I've got
We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don't need permission from nobody else
'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

And nothing's ever perfect there's no guarantee
And if I knew the answers it would put my mind at ease
So I'll just keep on going the way I've gone so far
And maybe I'll end up tryin' to catch a fallin star

But I don't wanna think about what's gonna come around for me
I'll just take it day by day 'cause it's the only way
To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not
You get what you see, when you see what I've got
We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don't need permission from nobody else
'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

Baby this is who I am
Don't need you to understand
'Cause everything is right where it should be
It wont be long til you know about me,
'Cause I don't give a...

Even when I'm out of love
'Cause everythings just how it should be
And it wont be long till you know about me

I never pretend to be something I'm not
You get what you see, when you see what I've got
We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don't need permission from nobody else
'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

a song

2009-05-22T20:38:00.003+09:00

we often fool ourselves and say that its love because when its gone we end up being lonely.

so how are we to know that its just isn't so.

and that we just have to let each other go.

there were many times when we shared precious moments but later on we realize they were only stolen moments.

if loving you is all that means to me and being happy is all i hope you'd be,

then loving you must mean i really have to set you free.

each day we meet my love for you keeps growing but at the same time it makes leaving you so much harder.

letting go is not an easy task.

when smiling feels like wearing this lonely mask.

it hurts deep inside and i just can't hide.

true or false

2009-05-11T14:33:00.002+09:00

mana nah amu exam sa midterm. yehey! nagcheck me ganina sa amu papers. huhu. naluoy q sa amu usa kah klasmate ke xa ang g'blame sah uban tungod ke wa da nya g'discuss tong u sa mga gpang'enumerate ni sir sa test 2. and then naa mi usa kah number nga gilalisan whether true or false. mangau pud q comment whether true or false bah.

Earning profit is ONLY one of the goals of business.

dugay jud mi naglalis bout ana. ngau q ug comment bout ana.

better

2009-05-06T22:28:00.005+09:00

whew! another exhausting day had ended. it's the birthday of my sister pala today. apee bday soy. apee bday pud pamz. well, anyway, finish nah jud aq exam sah calculus ug stat. i'm worried with my exam in statistics. i've lost 20 points in the first problem because of the interval width thing. grrrrr! hope i'll still pass the exam. im just so worried. im done reporting kanina. pnahirapan aq ni sir jil. tapos nakita q ung babaeng ayaw q makita. =/

enough for the worst.

and the best thing today? i think we're getting better nah ulit kahit d pah maxado.

well, lights off nah kami. nitee. mwah.

late!

2009-05-05T14:35:00.004+09:00

i got up late in the morning. i rushed to school forgetting why i'd slept so late. after my first class was done i remembered the reason for such thing. i was so occupied by a friend. we talked about the least person i thought of as our topic. that was great, i almost told him everything. everything except for the name of the person. i think my friend already knew who i was referring to the whole time. of course he knew him. he always do.

i'm done

2009-05-03T22:22:00.003+09:00

i'm done with my report. am so exhausted. i've done many things today. i went to the church together with my family. my younger sister had received the sacrament of confirmation today. i saw an old friend whom i've been missing so much. i went with my mother to buy something for lunch. then we watched pacman's two-round match with mr. hitman. after which we watched a horror movie and ate our lunch. then after the washing of dishes were done. i went reading and soon enough after two hours i realized i have closed my eyes and wondered to sleep. then a friend came over and the worst thing that had happened this day followed. i felt sad and in pain. i resorted to my friends but none of them seem to gave me an idea of what to do exactly. i am battling over my mind and my feelings. and then i realized it was really over. i continued working with my report. of course, still bothered with the ended bond with him. i can't concentrate much on what i was doing. from time to time i have to glance over my mobile phone hoping i'd get a text from him. i ate my supper. still feeling stiff and dull. i continued doing my reasearch for the report and later i felt nauseous. my head ached because of too much computer thing. i can barely stand more than an hour infront of the computer. my eyes will be complaining and if not listened to headache will follow. but i didn't mind. i continued until i really can't take it anymore.

sala naq

2009-05-03T17:38:00.002+09:00

wala q kasabot sa aq na'feel. i'l admit, dugay na jud q ga'huna huna nah bulagan nah xa pro mahadlok q masakitan xa. so, i just keep on doing my thing. nkadugay mi, ngkalayo q nya. mao nah amu pirme awayan. pirme q wala'y tym sa iya. dghan nah kau q ug sala nya. maybe i deserved this. well maybe "deserve" is not the right word to use. i do not deserve this because its what i want to happen ever since he's been so protective. he just changed man gud. mas agresibo, over-protective, seryoso nah kaau. that made our relationship boring. that pushed me away from him. wala'y adlaw nah dli q masuq niya. i seldom think of ending our relationship. and by saying seldom i actually mean everyday except the day he cried. that stopped me. because of that incident, i always consider his feelings. na'realize naq i've never stood up for him. kung xa pa'storyahon, para naq balewala ra daw tnan iyang gpangbuhat para naq. well, part of it is true though. nakonxenxa pud bya q. wa jud qy nabuhat para nya. atleast man lang mka one fourth q sa iyang effort. wala jud. dghan au q ug excuses everytime nahan xa magkita me. cguro nakonxenxa lang q that's y im hurt. hay ambot. wa pud jud q kblo unsa. wa jud q idea. dghan man pud malipay sa nahitabo. first and foremost is iyang former girlfriend and second is his sister.

it's over

2009-05-03T17:22:00.000+09:00

i can't seem to find my self..
i can feel the pain inside me..
slowly creeping and making a hole in my chest..
i've been waiting for this day to come..
to be free again..
to be free from him..
but i never imagined this kind of pain..
i thought it will be just fine..
maybe its just a normal reaction..
a normal feeling..
maybe i'll just get over it..
i've done it before..
i can do it twice..

i think it's far better that he chose to let go of me first..
because i think he would feel less of the pain
if ever it'll be me who'll end it..
i think i can handle it much better
than him, if he's in my situation right now..

i just wondered, why i am feeling so bad..
so bad that i wanted to explode..
so bad that i wanted to cry..
to cry out loud..

but i know i can't

because i know this is all my fault..

i have to admit, i want it to end..

but the pain would not subside..

a taste of reality

2009-04-07T19:16:00.000+09:00

(unedited)

angry girl(6-Apr-09 9:44:03am): gud am..hw thick n dull s ur fce grl?u seemed so cnfidnt n rplyng my sistr,nd pissng her of...u ruined r**** nd g****'s rlatnshp,!myb r**** ws nt hpi wd my sistr nymre,.nd 4 d cause,8s u hu'v bin arwnd flirtng..do u bliv n KARMA?wa8 it'll cme 4 both of u..!

angry girl(6-Apr-09 9:49:41am): u myt nt knw me..,nd g**** dat much..jst pray i'd nt see u nd r**** n my way nd g****'s way.,so u'l nt get embarass.,u choose hu wl u mess up wid r*** m** g******..

ugly duckling: xcuse me? im not dull. nd its not my fault f she'd got herself pissed off. i did not do anything 2 her.

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:02:36am): oh reli?dn wat r u goi'n 2 call ur slf?slut?u knw wat.,jst get rid on g****'s way.,nd my way too..u donnot knw hu ur messng up wd..nd by d way, ur g******* frnd?hmmm..sooner or la8r il cme 2 c u thru her.,am nt threatning,jst tel'n wat 2 hapn..

ugly duckling: get rid of ur way? hu r u anyway? i did not ruin any relationship here. i've got him fair n square. can't u just sit back n accept d fact he n ur sister were thru?

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:06:22am): tel ur bf r****.,he'll hv hs KARMA comi'n hs way soon,oh i 4got..including U..,stealng boyfrnd frm otherz s bad,vry2x bad,dnt knw dat?..tripple d KARMA s so scary..tel r**** he jst dropped d bg fsh n d ocean,nd too bad he catches d smallest 1,nd 8s YOU..

ugly duckling: i did not steal anything. n i've got nothing to b afraid of. n pls dont spill so much of wat ur tru colors r. coz datz wat losers do. dy cant accept sum realities of lyf. i dont give a damn to wat u thnk of me. nd dont u dare talk to me about karma coz u dont know anything about wat rili had happened.

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:09:24am): oh,yeah,i knw they're through alrdy,nd dats bcoz of u.,wel,anyway 8s nt a bg deal nymre..he's nt worth 2 b wd,.ndgrl,rmembr ds,ds damn cty s too small 4 us,jst dnt block my sistrz way..

ugly duckling: bcoz of me? s dat wat u think? oohh. its a privilege! don't block her wat? s she d driveway? cant she stand up on her own dats y its u hu's nagging me now? wat a dumb girl.

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:16:17am): ows?me?ur 2kng 2 me?y dnt u ask hm?r u blind?dey wer stl 2gethr wen u came n der way..,ur only 18 yrz old,dami mo pang kakaining bigas...my sistr s nt a loser,she's a celeb,wel,myt as wel sed,she jst gave her old toy 2 an ugly duckling lyk u..,look at ur slf n a mirror,nd cmpare ur slf 2 my sistr's fce..

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:19:am): of corz i hv ol d ryts.,blood s thckr dan wtr..by d way,u nd r**** cme up 2gthr,n a perfct blend..tanks 4 d tym..jst dnt let ur slf roam arwnd d cty so i wont c u..

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:21:48am): owhs,she's nt d drve way,she's jst d long windng road,dat she chooses hu wl pass through.,nd since,she doesn't lyk u,me neithr,..back off..

ugly duckling: so am i a criminal here? ur not d one hu had been feeding me up so u do not have any of d ryts stated or not stated n d law to prevent me from doing watever i wana do.

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:25:13am): wel,ds s a dmocratic country,u cn do watevr u wnt nd watevr u wnt 2,..jst hav ur limitatn..of corz,am nt d 1 feedng u,i dnt lyk feedng snakes..tke ur tym..jst back off..i knw ur a smart girl..tanks 4 d replies..

ugly duckling: thank u! i'l take the latter part as a complement. bt im not backing off coz im not guilty of anything. im doing good here n ur doing worst by ntruding my lyf.

ugly duckling: can u pls b clearer n ur english. i can hardly understand it.

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:27:15am): a c******* s2dnt doesnt undrstnd a smple englsh frm a englsh tchr,a broadcst journalist,nd a reporter frm abs-cbn..,oh,my gosh,wat ashame..

ugly duckling: ur d one hu's putting urclf nto shame. u col urclf an english teacher? u must b kidding me. ur making me laf. wd ol dos profexons u shud know up to wer ur edges shud end.

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:32:48am): Helom beh!

ugly duckling: can u pls tell g**** HATING ME WON'T MAKE HER PRETTY.

angry girl(6-Apr-09 10:38:42am): oh,she doesn't ha8 u r***.. n fact..she luv's u 4 replacng her frm r****..:-) good luck!

ugly duckling: oh really? does she luv me? s ds her way of showing her luv? how fake.

NO MORE RESPONSE..

i might regret it

2009-04-05T22:10:00.000+09:00

i really wanted it to end..
when things don't go the way i want it to..

every time he turns me down,
i became so hard on forgiving him..
every time he commits a little mistake,
i make him suffer so great..
every wrong move he make,
i make it a reason to let him go..

but i did not..
i'm afraid that i'll regret it..

let him go?
end this relationship?
that's what i always think every time
we're not doing fine..

but now i realize,
i cannot find any other like him in this world..

i cannot find someone who would say,

whatever you do i'll never give up on you
because i really love you that much..
=(..

bite of jealousy

2009-03-29T10:33:00.001+09:00

to my friend's girl

once we were friends of her and i am also a friend to him..
i'll admit i love him but he loves her..

yes, we're just friends and you're together..
but why is it i became one of the reasons for the both of you to start a fight..
he says he's just keeping his promise to me..
and that it's not something to be beyond that promise..
she say's she had enough of him..
every time she mentions me he concludes it as jealousy..
she says she's not jealous, she's just don't like the fact that
he cannot tell her his whereabouts when his with me..
she says she can understand
but i guess that's contrary to what she is doing..
when they are together they are perfectly fine..
but when she saw me approaching her mood swifts by almost instantly..
when i am around, i can sense that she is uneasy..
and the worst we've been the closest of friends before..
yet she yells that we are not friends
and that i am angry with her
and hopes that i would still consider her as my friend..

same old mistake

2009-03-04T23:00:00.000+09:00

i am starting to love him again

but he's starting to make me feel that i've made a mistake.

i have given him another chance

but he had given me another reason to hate and put the blame on myself.

i have given him my trust and loyalty

but he had given me nothing but pain.

i believed him

but all he said to me was lies.

and worst of all,

he is the same person who had hurt me before,

it's the same old mistake,

it's the same old alibi,

it's the same old lies,

but this time, the pain is much so unbearable..

im fine

2009-02-09T12:22:00.000+09:00

now things are starting to fall back into its places.. i feel alright and some things are happening way beyond my expectations.. old relationships are getting stronger.. i've found out who my real friends are.. my relationship with my family are even tighter.. so i want to thank GOD for all the blessings i am enjoying right now..

a message..

2009-02-08T16:34:00.000+09:00

she said..

"it's painful to fall in love with someone who has someone else..
especially if you tried everything to ignore the feelings..
worst is, if that someone made you feel as if you're someone special..
but then, you are just special
and never would be loved.."

i said..

"you know what's weird?
it's when he already have you as his someone who he loves
and someone who holds his heart..
but still he falls in love with me, who just simply walked by.."

LOL!!

the ONLY ONE

2009-02-04T12:41:00.000+09:00

i never knew it would be so hard.. my friends seemed to be so far and out of reach.. my thoughts and emotions seems to be raging and battling with each other.. i don't know who to turn to.. but then it came to my senses that i have GOD in my life.. i should let him take the wheel and let HIM take control of my life.. i really need to be redirected.. some things are going out of hand and are too hard and heavy for me to handle alone.. i hope things will be all right soon.. help me GOD.. you're the only ONE i have now.. you're the only one who understands me right now..

reality is..

2009-01-31T23:54:00.003+09:00

some things are just not meant to be..
some persons are not meant to stay with us forever..

the ONE

2009-01-27T01:58:00.000+09:00

i wanna tell him that HE's the ONE that i'm thinking of but HIS heart is still with HER.

anD i thInk and is gReatLy cOnvinCed that SHE's the ONE that He LOVES.

he Doesn't know how the pain is hurting me.

i only want HIM to be HAPPY..

"even if it's not with ME.."

maybe ONE day..

HE'll open up HIS eyes and he'll SEE....

a friend who doesn't even care

2009-01-22T23:06:00.000+09:00

i don't know what went into her mind that made her posed a silly joke on us.
a joke which made everything around me complicated.
a joke which made me an untrustworthy person in front of my parents.
and because of that silly joke i lied to my parents.
we spent hours outside the cold night looking for nothing except disappointment and anger.
my worried face turned into an irritated one.
my cold hands were now burning with great resentment.
i don't know why she calls us her friends when

she doesn't even know how to consider our feelings.

a prayer

2009-01-22T16:24:00.000+09:00

LORD GOD,
Thank you for this wonderful day. Thank you for giving me another day in my life, another day to celebrate your goodness. Thank you for the gift of belongingness. Thank you for my family, we had shared a wonderful supper this night. Thank you for blessing my friend, Dylan, today. Thank you for enlightening her and his guy. Thank you for giving them to me as my friends. Hope you'll enlighten Leesh and Massie to whatever pain, doubts and misunderstanding they are into right now. I know you'll only provide what's best for them. Help them realize what is really the right thing to do. I am hoping that everything will soon be over and everything will return to the way it has always been. And I believe that you'll always be with us, growing stronger after surpassing this challenge in our life. I also pray for your guidance on me. Let your voice be clear in my heart and in my mind so that I'll be able to do what you want me to do.
I love you.
Good night.

a space in our finger

2009-01-16T21:17:00.000+09:00

the spaces in our FINGERS were made so that OTHER PERSON's FINGERS would fill them..

i hope he would fill them..

arE we fRienDs?

2009-01-08T19:23:00.000+09:00

FRIENDS...

do you think your friends are real ones? well? i don't think so.. sometimes it crosses into my mind why i call them my friends and why they call me the same..

it is starting to get into my nerves that the reason why they call me a friend is because they NEED me, and not for the value of friendship and the essence of being friends..

i feel important whenever they NEED me to do something for them..
during those times i am very well treated..
and after doing things such i am treated back as to my
being dumped and useless self..
i didn't even hear the words THANK YOU from them..

they are good actors and actresses, making you feel that they really care about you, but the truth is they just do it so that others can see that they are the best fabric of friends there is in the world..

how AWFUL isn't?

YET,
i still call and consider them as my friends..

YET,
i want to be with their company..

YET,
i don't want any of them to be angry with me..

YET,
i don't want them to be annoyed by my presence..

YET,
i still miss them..

YET,

i still LOVE them
even though they don't feel and show the same..

i el-oW-vEe-E theONE=(..

I Love Him.. He Loves Me Not

2009-01-07T12:39:00.000+09:00

i love him, he loves me not

every time i fall inlove, i seemed to be cursed and doomed.

it turns out that the one i love, loves someone else.

he seems to like me at first which drove me to like him too.

but when i finally realize that the like-thing is already becoming a love-thing, he turns away and leaves me hanging and empty.

it always happen everytime i love.

i fall for someone so easily and get hurt deeply and extensively.

i am very vulnerable and fragile when it comes to love.

and i pity myself for that…=(

i el-oW-vEe-E theONE