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i thought it would be a very long and boring day. i just kept on wishing that the day would end soon. but later then, with an unexpected turn of events, right then i wished to stop time and be still on that moment forever. a place of comfort and soundness. a place like heaven.
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DYA CONFERENCE '09
we started it with a celebration of the Holy Eucharistic mass. then poured out the youth's energy and enthusiasm by a parade from the San Jose Parish to SCC-YDC gym. we relaxed and look for our happy place, oh, i mean, our respective places in the gym. after switching places every now and then, we finally settled to the left side of the gymnasium. then the conference started and ended swiftly, now becoming a priceless memory and experience of my existence.
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UNITY Dance
i forgot the lyrics but i swear that was great. SUPER! and one line of the song i didn't forgot is this,"Move to the groove, CHRIST is the prize."
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Saint Paul
the main focus of our conference is about the life and faith of Saint Paul who was once known as Saul of Tarsus, the prosecutor.
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Saint Mary
we had group activities and i am in Saint Mary's group! i admire one of my groupmates. wetwew! though he's from Pagadian still its the first time i've heard him speak. and i secretly peeked on his nametag to see for myself what his name is. and it's Alvin.
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Session! Session! Session!
first session was about faith. sounds fun as faith is often illustrated with a relationship with the other being. yet faith is so hard to achieve. so easy to say but so diffucult to portray.
second, unity in Christ. as far as what Fr. Suarin had stressed during his lecture, unity in Christ means living ecumenically with all.
and last yet the most memorable for me was the talk of Sister Aquinas. she had given us two challenges as we go on with our conference. first challenge was to live out what Fr. Suarin was telling us and second was to be silent. be SILENT.
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it's time to partaay!
showcase of talents from the different vicariate areas had begun.
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p.s.
sssshh. be silent so that you'll know how to listen. =)
|12:19:00 PM|
he was mine but not really.
i've never really had him.
so, i never really lost him.
i guess, this is how we'll always be.
i had him.
he had me.
but then again, there's no us really.
|7:43:00 PM|
|2:31:00 PM|
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i want to sleep but i don't know how to.
i am a little troubled right now.
friends are going further.
people are away.
i feel so lost.
i am alone.
i remembered a friend but then he seems busy.
i can't talk to anyone.
i miss him.
i am tired.
i feel sick.
i want to give up.
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nitee. =(
|12:39:00 AM|
after a long while, we had the chance to talk and see each other again.
i smiled at him and so did he.
"so, what's going on with your committed life?" i asked.
"we're FINE," he answered.
there's a tone of declaration and truthfulness in his voice. somehow, it made me feel sad. but i also heard a hymn of loneliness on the way he stressed out those words. i wondered and it made me quiet. we're both very still and silent. it's deafening. and for me its already killing inside.
breaking the silence, he asked, "are you alright?"
i stared at him and then i nodded. looking away i nodded again staring blankly at nothingness.
then the words came instantly from him and started to say,
"i've BEEN missing you."
the word 'BEEN' hit me. it's like somebody had slapped me in the face.
"i miss your voice. i miss your face. the expressions only your face could make," he paused, cracking up a hurtful smile.
then, he continued, "i miss the touch of your hand. i miss how gentle we put our hands together. i miss how loose your grip was and how i tighten mine so that i won't lose you."i explained to my self, 'my grip was loose beacuse i know you already belonged to someone and holding it tight will make it very difficult for me to let go.'
"i miss the way you laugh at my silliest joke. i miss the way you cry over friendship and some drama movies. i miss the way we fight over small things and laugh a minute after. i miss the way you get angry with me and the way you scold me."
"i miss your text messages. i miss the songs you once sang to me. i miss the times thinking hard on what song should i sing to you every night. i miss the times i play the guitar beside you. i miss the times that i would walk you home and i end up getting home very late. i miss how we look at the night sky together."'i miss that, too,' i said under my breath.
"i miss the time when i slept at your lap and you in mine. i miss your irrated smile when i tickle you and when i touch your nose and your face. i miss your tired look, your worried aura, your sleepy eyes."
"i miss you. i miss your company. i miss the way we we're before. i really do."
he hugged me tight as tears fell from his eyes.
and right before a single tear fell from mine i realized he loves me as much as i love him.
i hugged him tighter.
and then,
i woke up. =(
|1:09:00 PM|
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meeting you was the greatest thing that had happened to me.
loving you was the biggest mistake i've made.
>tseyk!
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yippey!
walang pasok! walang pasok!
tenk u na rin sa A(h1n1) ..
hehe..
i have 1 week pah..
chege. gudnite!
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p.s.
mwah!
|12:13:00 AM|
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june nah jud.
ahmm. ui. happy monthsary sa mga tawong karun ang monthsary. haha. sa mga nakabalo kinsa cla. ato2 nalang ni. haha.
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max.
tenchu sa treat gahapon. mwah. lab u.
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yang.
hehe. apir. wala lang. mis u!
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ahem. te peng. processing pa imu order. excited au huh. hihi!
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wel. ahmm. hi. hihi. amping.
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mi. kie rka? hehe.
>okey rah bya. wala lang. haha.
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p.s.
mwah!
|1:49:00 PM|