i can't seem to find my self..
i can feel the pain inside me..
slowly creeping and making a hole in my chest..
i've been waiting for this day to come..
to be free again..
to be free from him..
but i never imagined this kind of pain..
i thought it will be just fine..
maybe its just a normal reaction..
a normal feeling..
maybe i'll just get over it..
i've done it before..
i can do it twice..

i think it's far better that he chose to let go of me first..
because i think he would feel less of the pain
if ever it'll be me who'll end it..
i think i can handle it much better
than him, if he's in my situation right now..

i just wondered, why i am feeling so bad..
so bad that i wanted to explode..
so bad that i wanted to cry..
to cry out loud..

but i know i can't

because i know this is all my fault..

i have to admit, i want it to end..

but the pain would not subside..