she said.."it's painful to fall in love with someone who has someone else..
especially if you tried everything to ignore the feelings..
worst is, if that someone made you feel as if you're someone special..
but then, you are just special
and never would be loved.."
i said.."you know what's weird?
LOL!!
it's when he already have you as his someone who he loves
and someone who holds his heart..
but still he falls in love with me, who just simply walked by.."
i never knew it would be so hard.. my friends seemed to be so far and out of reach.. my thoughts and emotions seems to be raging and battling with each other.. i don't know who to turn to.. but then it came to my senses that i have GOD in my life.. i should let him take the wheel and let HIM take control of my life.. i really need to be redirected.. some things are going out of hand and are too hard and heavy for me to handle alone.. i hope things will be all right soon.. help me GOD.. you're the only ONE i have now.. you're the only one who understands me right now..