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Saturday, January 31, 2009

reality is..

some things are just not meant to be..
some persons are not meant to stay with us forever..

k Y u t i E
|11:54:00 PM|

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

the ONE

i wanna tell him that HE's the ONE that i'm thinking of but HIS heart is still with HER.

anD i thInk and is gReatLy cOnvinCed that SHE's the ONE that He LOVES.

he Doesn't know how the pain is hurting me.

i only want HIM to be HAPPY..

"even if it's not with ME.."

maybe ONE day..

HE'll open up HIS eyes and he'll SEE....

k Y u t i E
|1:58:00 AM|

Thursday, January 22, 2009

a friend who doesn't even care

i don't know what went into her mind that made her posed a silly joke on us.
a joke which made everything around me complicated.
a joke which made me an untrustworthy person in front of my parents.
and because of that silly joke i lied to my parents.
we spent hours outside the cold night looking for nothing except disappointment and anger.
my worried face turned into an irritated one.
my cold hands were now burning with great resentment.
i don't know why she calls us her friends when

she doesn't even know how to consider our feelings.

k Y u t i E
|11:06:00 PM|

a prayer

LORD GOD,
Thank you for this wonderful day. Thank you for giving me another day in my life, another day to celebrate your goodness. Thank you for the gift of belongingness. Thank you for my family, we had shared a wonderful supper this night. Thank you for blessing my friend, Dylan, today. Thank you for enlightening her and his guy. Thank you for giving them to me as my friends. Hope you'll enlighten Leesh and Massie to whatever pain, doubts and misunderstanding they are into right now. I know you'll only provide what's best for them. Help them realize what is really the right thing to do. I am hoping that everything will soon be over and everything will return to the way it has always been. And I believe that you'll always be with us, growing stronger after surpassing this challenge in our life. I also pray for your guidance on me. Let your voice be clear in my heart and in my mind so that I'll be able to do what you want me to do.
I love you.
Good night.

k Y u t i E
|4:24:00 PM|

Friday, January 16, 2009

a space in our finger

the spaces in our FINGERS were made so that OTHER PERSON's FINGERS would fill them..

i hope he would fill them..

k Y u t i E
|9:17:00 PM|

Thursday, January 8, 2009

arE we fRienDs?

FRIENDS...

do you think your friends are real ones? well? i don't think so.. sometimes it crosses into my mind why i call them my friends and why they call me the same..

it is starting to get into my nerves that the reason why they call me a friend is because they NEED me, and not for the value of friendship and the essence of being friends..

i feel important whenever they NEED me to do something for them..
during those times i am very well treated..
and after doing things such i am treated back as to my
being dumped and useless self..
i didn't even hear the words THANK YOU from them..

they are good actors and actresses, making you feel that they really care about you, but the truth is they just do it so that others can see that they are the best fabric of friends there is in the world..

how AWFUL isn't?

YET,
i still call and consider them as my friends..

YET,
i want to be with their company..

YET,
i don't want any of them to be angry with me..

YET,
i don't want them to be annoyed by my presence..

YET,
i still miss them..

YET,

i still LOVE them
even though they don't feel and show the same..

i el-oW-vEe-E theONE=(..

k Y u t i E
|7:23:00 PM|

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

I Love Him.. He Loves Me Not

i love him, he loves me not

every time i fall inlove, i seemed to be cursed and doomed.

it turns out that the one i love, loves someone else.

he seems to like me at first which drove me to like him too.

but when i finally realize that the like-thing is already becoming a love-thing, he turns away and leaves me hanging and empty.

it always happen everytime i love.

i fall for someone so easily and get hurt deeply and extensively.

i am very vulnerable and fragile when it comes to love.

and i pity myself for that…=(

i el-oW-vEe-E theONE

k Y u t i E
|12:39:00 PM|